“And I was with you in weakness and in fear and much trembling, and my speech and my message were not in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power” (1 Corinthians 2:3-4, ESV)
Why is vulnerability so hard to express in this world?
A world that is terribly sickened with all sorts of hurt and pain……
Each time I write a post on this blog, my heart races with fear. I feel exposed. Completely naked to the world.
And yet I still write….
Why?
Because if I don’t, I become restless.
A restlessness that only comes from being disobedient to my Father in Heaven.
I crossed paths with a friend today. She made a statement that cut into my heart. Not a statement that was meant to hurt me, but one that spoke Truth, right when I needed it.
She said, “People don’t understand it Nichole. They see our words as one thing, but we see our words as being a witness.”
I sat on these words the whole ride home….
Such Truth in these words of hers….
Words that I needed to be told today. Words that would push me back in front of the computer, where I could bang out the words on my keyboard, of all that my soul feels….
Should I be embarrassed over my words in this blog? Over my nakedness?
No, my friend.
I should only be embarrassed if I don’t speak them.
The world is full of hurting people. People so afraid to expose who they are inside – who they have been – and who they want to be.
One can never know where they’re going…. if one doesn’t know where they’re from.
Boy…. it took me a really long time to figure out where I’m from.
I’m from a place that felt a need to cover up and pretend that life wasn’t what it was.
Just like a person who clothes their physical nakedness, I spent too many years covering up my soul nakedness.
Trying so desperately to cover up all the hurt and pain.
But a soul wound needs breathing room just like a physical wound. If not, an infection will fester. This leads to nothing less than more hurt.
I will never stop uncovering my soul as I share words with the world.
Even now, as I’m being obedient to my Father in Heaven… I can feel the restlessness being lifted away. My peace is returning.
My soul wounds received fresh healing from these words spoken.
Remember….
When wounds are exposed, souls are exposed. And this my friend… gives life-breathing room for the Holy Spirit to heal.
Blessings! Love you all!
